Short Thoughts.

Curiousity killed the cat but that's a lie it can't die because it has nine lives,

These events in my life are happening so fast reminding me of the past and I don't know why,

This confusion in my mind is right behind all the questions that I have to ask but there is nobody to answer back,

So I'm sitting here writing a worthless poem that no one will ever read and the rest they will just leave alone,

Doing all these things out of anger and then realizing my mistake but by then I'm in too deep it's too late,

Reading the newspaper everyday wondering if my family will see me in there the next day,

My life is so crazy not even a psych ward could help,

So I'm swimming in first division of troubled water like Michael Phelps,

I have no reason to even continue these lines,

My heart bled, my brains dead, so I think it's about that time.

I Want A Girl..

I want a girl who know what she wants in life,
Nobody w/ drama but a girl so sweet and nice,
That's smart and shows she's independent,
I know im the one but her heart im going to win it,
Whenever im depressed, maybe feeling sad or down,
She would call me and pick me up off of the ground,
She would say the right things I would need to hear,
And when no ones around she's always right there,
I could trust that she wouldn't cheat, lie, or do wrong,
Her kisses writing the lyrics to my heart that sings the song,
A girl who's pretty and has her own style,
She's a leader not a follower she's calm and not wild,
But she's also outgoing and loves to have fun,
A girl like that I wish I could have one,
She's funny and got a good sense of humor that's a plus,
She's doing something positive in her life, that's a must,
She believes in God, even better if she's a christian,
She needs to come into my arms so that I could stop wishing,
I need a girl I could tell my life too,
The one I tell that I trust and I mean it for the first time,
Explain my life to her, why im the way I am, why im so heartless,
And she would understand and be there regardless,
I would treat her right I had bad experiences in the past,
But of course they were bad so that's the reason they didn't last,
I wouldn't be no player or try to cheat or initiate something,
I would keep it real with her she would never catch me frontin,
She's straight, bisexuality's a turn-off to me,
She likes me for me, K-w-a-m-e,
But for now I guess girls like that don't exist,
So for right now I sit at my window looking @ the shooting star making a wish....

For This Special Girl

1st off...Hello, nice to meet you my name is Fresh,
I hope you have a oxygen tank I'm about to take away your breath
Every time I see your beauty falls on me,
And anyone to let you go would take a big loss see,
Your personality rare like UFO in the air,
Floating on love name the place I'll take you there,
No pain, no hurt, no crying, no tears,
Compliment your vast beauty in anything that you wear,
Share, the last piece of the accomplishing cake,
I heard I make u feel warm inside so your heart started to bake,
And I'll be there even when you don't think I am,
Cool spray of love ocean waves on our bodies on the infatuated sand,
And you can ask for advice whenever you like,
If you feeling low I can you high like a kite,
Unless It's for your love then I don't wanna fight,
I have trusting dessert and I'm trying get you to bite,
So many miles between can't stop the connection so close,
Into the good life as my wife that we toast,
Your beauty amazing in some many ways,
Beauty I wouldn't mind waking up on so many days,
When I'm walking down dark corridors of loneliness you bring light,
Your so amazing you can even make my day in the NIGHT,
Run in my arms with butterflies I hold you so tight,
We walked to the end of cliff, fell in love ,even though your afraid of heights,
And I could never lie to you or hurt you in anyway,
I'm trying to get you to see that in this picture I'm trying to portray,
So what I'm trying to say in this poem today,
Is your my everything I wouldn't have it no other way.

Random Thoughts

She said I'm too secretive she doesn't know what I'm about,
I told her I don't know what love is girls never gave me a chance to find out,
I looked at the forest of happiness and took the tree most thick,
But somehow I still got the short end of the stick,
In the mist of the confusion I was to blind to see my dream,
Desperately needed a love fix for I am a fiend,
The hurt, the pain, the hunger, the lost,
Working my brain hard as if my mind was the boss,
Trying to clean the stains of guilt off of my clothes,
Repeating my story of hurt they act as if they don't know,
But every time I try to talk they act as though they don't want to hear,
I walk besides you to keep you safe you act as if I'm never there,
What does it take to get noticed in this world of corruption,
How much longer do I have to love myself,
If just one person cared, and another would just be there,
I could move out of paradise of pain to somewhere else,
Everyone that once pretended to care, was just there,
To stare and judge and then wait for the tears,
These are just random thoughts that I'm thinking at the time,
So read it and let it apply to every person you pass by.

Who Will Cry For The Little Boy? (Antwone Fisher Version Re-made)

Who will cry for the little boy who hurts so much inside,
who will cry for the little boy who doesn't remember how to smile,
Who will cry for the little boy who has no one there,
Who will cry for the little boy when no one seems to care,
Who will cry for the little boy who once went through every type of abuse,
Who will cry for the little boy who to mankind serves no longer a use,
Who will cry for the little boy who's used to depression,
Who will cry for the little boy who never had peaceful resting,
Who will cry for the little boy who never could find love,
who will cry for the little boy who will give him a hug,
who will tell him everythings OK and that their there to stay,
who will travel lifes journey with him and won't fall astray
Who will love him and cherish him for that is all he wants,
who will encourage him and tel him he's smart whenever he feels like a dunce,
Who will kiss him and hold him day and night and make him feel secure,
Who will motivate him to achieve when no longer the pressure he can endure,
No one will cry for the little boy for they won't waste their tears,
No one will be by the little boys side for they'd wish they were never there,
No one ever kept the little boy they felt as they didn't care,
So 18 years even the little boy couldn't cry for himself because he ran out of tears,

No one would rescue the little boy out of the troubled ocean...

Everyone took the little boy to the wrong path so he has yet to find his emotions......

Who will cry for the little boy?